“I have been in therapy for the past two years, trying to rid myself of my addiction to pornography. My therapy had not really changed the way I felt about anything, nor did it stop me from having the urges which fueled my need for porn. My addiction had brought my life to ruin. I had lost several close relationships because of it. I could no longer perform sexually, because I had an unrealistic expectation in my mind fueled by my pornography fantasy. Porn even affected my work and the way I viewed women as objects. Getting myself in trouble because I was disconnected from reality in such a way, I could no longer separate fantasy life with how I should be around everyday people who had nothing to do with my illusions. I was always depressed, and felt deep feelings of shame, I felt broken. It was my therapist who suggested I try hypnosis. Now in hind sight, it was the best suggestion I had gotten up to that point in my therapy.
When I came to Blooming Lotus Hypnosis, I had done a lot of research online about hypnosis. I have always been a very skeptical person, being an atheist, I want to see the science and proof that something really works. Judge became my hypnotherapist. I was impressed with his knowledge, and he was able to make me feel comfortable right away. That in itself was very unusual for me, I might even say that has never happened to me before. I was able to open up to him and speak freely about my problem with porn and how I felt. He never once made me feel embarrassed or ashamed, and maintained a genuine level of compassion while being professional throughout our time working together. He explained the process to me and for the first time in years, I really felt hopeful. The experience of being in hypnosis blew my mind. I became so relaxed I couldn’t move any part of my body if I wanted too. I felt wonderful after every session which also became my new norm of feeling every day. Each session was different, and unique. I learned were my addiction began in my life and why I felt the way I have for as long as I can remember. I learned how to change the way I feel and changed the way I thought about pornography. I learn how to forgive myself. He even taught me self-hypnosis, which I use every day now. I no longer feel depressed, or ashamed of myself. I now know there is nothing wrong with me, that I am not broken. I have been porn free for over 60 days now, and I know I will never go back to the way I was. Because everything I think and feel about porn has changed forever. I feel positive about myself and my future. My only regret is that I wish I could have found hypnosis sooner. Thanks to Judge Williams and his skill in hypnosis I got my life back.”